After a long struggle, I can finally launch with pride my new Website; another dream has come true. I looked up to the skies with gratitude; but when I finally looked down, I suddenly came to realise that 2018 is here. I remember as if it was yesterday that as a teenager at the time when the launch of the film ‘Space Odyssey 2000 ‘was due to be released, I remember thinking that the year 2000 was a million years away and that I would be old by then; too old to worry about the world….I would be 37 in 2000 and will be an old woman!! So I did not watch the film nor showed any interest in it…I mean why should I be interested in what the world would be like in the future when I will not be able to participate in it?!!
Then at the grand old age of 53 in 2016 I took the courage to follow my heart and left full time employment as an estate agent and opened up ‘The Housework Hub’, this is my way of externalising a dream towards self- achievement and through my life’s journey recognising that I wanted to buy my time back from an employer and to have it in my hands to do with as I wish. Now that I am on my way of having my dreams come true, I DO want to see how the world looks now and will look in the future, and that how wrong I was as a teenager to believe that far in the distance, tomorrow will not matter. I learnt that – not only that the future may matter, but that it may matter and therefore how I THINK NOW matters! As the year 2017 was coming to close I reflected back at the year and felt very proud of how much I have achieved in attaining my dream; and then in December I saw my father die and during the start of my grieving process I wondered what most people must also question and wonder about in their own lives; ‘what is the point of it all, what is the purpose of my life, in short, what is the meaning of life?’ I have always turned to books to heal myself and this was one time in my life when I did need/want healing. Whenever I have had questions in life, I turn to books. My father was a writer so having grown up with them; books are the first thing I turn to. They make me realise that I am not alone and that many others are or have gone through much worse; this realisation alone of being ‘better off than…’ raises my mood to a feeling of gratefulness and gratitude rather than a focus on any short comings in my own life; and I am not referring to big things; simple reminders are not to be ignored; like when I am driving in the snow and rain and sitting in traffic frustrated and desperate to get to somewhere fast; I only have to look around me and it could be that I see a bus stop with a young woman with her three children, shopping bags and a pram trying to get home. I remind myself how lucky I am that I am in my warm car, I am comfortable, I am lucky I can afford a car whilst that woman at the bus stop would be happy right now with just a lift home in one. During the many books I have read and I am reading during this grieving process, I have come to realise that we are ALL looking for happiness. To be happy is our goal both as a human being and as an individual and that we all are different in what makes us happy….but happiness is what we all seek, no matter what we do in our daily lives, what we think, what actions we take, it is all driven towards achieving the feeling of being ‘happy.’ So I reached a conclusion that the meaning of life is’ to find happiness.’ This does raise the next big question; ‘What is happiness?’ Although the question is huge; somehow the search for happiness seems far more appealing than to be in search of ‘meaning of life.’ The list of what makes me happy is long and I have decided that my new adventure and insight will lead me to my treasure. So here I am at the beginning of a New Year and it has begun like no other; I begin the year as part of a group of people who have lost their father and through this painful experience, I have been left with a truly renewed hope in life having my own personal quest to find ‘what makes me happy.’ I would like to thank everyone that has been part of my journey in the last year in the creation of ‘The Housework Hub’, all my clients so far and all of them who are yet to join me. Thank you not only for your business but for being part of my journey and story of my quest. Samia
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AuthorSamia Ahmad, Director of The Houswork Hub. Archives
November 2019
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